How would one justify the extent of the madness - And once the house was built and mortar dry and And when children emerged from tiny rooms to play And when dinner parties lasted late into the evening And when the children were no longer that but something else And when retirement leapt out in ambush armed with And when the thousands of admirers who had once graced When the house becomes too much to bear, old and alone, When the time comes to sell and move on: Does the lie still follow you? Or was it bundled with the mortgage?on bubbles
what is the weight, in grams, of the lie for which we
built the house
tapestries and paintings clothed the walls
to end the hollow echoing through empty rooms
and run and roll down stairs and scrape the walls
and stain the rugs and to let goldfish die
followed by coffee and cigars, and the furniture
had to be replaced for the sake of social status,
and the guest rooms torn down to make the library
of books never opened past their inscriptions on the third page
and the chipped china of wedding presents thrown out
rather than given to charity
and rather like a mirror which does not fade in the absence
of light, and when they themselves invariably vanished one
day
to be replaced by the hand of the postman full of bills
and blank postcards and the occasional ringing phone
reasons and sensibilities too many and too great to
vanquish
the presence of the house and worn her into something
fashionable suddenly become as mist, and rooms so long
unused and filled with vague memories of once important things
become too much to look at
and the thought of a quiet townhouse with no yards or maids
seems as beautiful or tangible as winter roses